I play the games I’ve been taught to play
To make my way past the edges of words.
Friday cocktails, diets and
Weekly starvation,
Cocaine;
Wanting the look that makes you want me.
Sex pulls me in deeper,
Sinking into my self-created world,
Incapable of understanding your words.
Those words you use
Just to get inside.
I use the same phrases, you know.
I win these games every time and
Lose a little bit of myself.
1998
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